8 days and we notice

One day about a year ago my son being a  teen hit a rough patch.Friend drama, relationship challenges, parent kid dynamics, it all hit him at once. Like all of us that age he had a period thathe was not as confident , not as happy. In that time he made a FB post that stated if he died that night would anyone notice?

In 8 days it will be one year since I hugged you, heard you, seen you . I can answer the question kiddo, we all have noticed. Every single one of us in your life, we feel the void. In almost year there has been one event dedicated to you, a scholarship founded in your name, 15 memorial tattoos I know of, over 100 you are on folks minds in social media posts and 17 I miss you emails in your in box. You are seen in rainbows, unicorns and our hearts. We find you in dreams, coins being moved and random glitter angel fly bye.

We notice love. Dad and I , family, friends we all are painfully aware.At times I think I am the one who is deceased and in hell. My hell living each day with this painful hole in my chest, my awareness that I outlived my child.

The what if is here and we notice sweetie.We love you .